My church is doing a book right now in small groups called Not a Fan by Kyle Idleman. I am not a fan of Not a Fan, but that’s a subject for another post. This book keeps making me feel bad about myself, even though I don’t think I really have anything to feel bad about. So I started thinking about that and why that would be.
I listen to Christian radio, and there are a lot of songs about guilt and sin and shame and how much people need forgiveness. And yeah, we all need forgiveness, and I’m grateful for it, and so forth–but I don’t really feel convicted right now, at this point in my life, with any particular sin. Sure, I could be more patient with my family and more forgiving, but I don’t feel like there’s a lot of sin plaguing my life. I’m probably at a pretty good place, sin-wise, in my Christian walk right now.
And I was thinking about this, and then I suddenly realized: if I don’t have a lot of sin in my life right now… why do I constantly feel so anxious, guilty, and unworthy?
Is it possible… the things I’m feeling guilty and bad about myself about… aren’t actually BAD?